I honestly cannot help myself,
I try to let go and distance myself.
I’m no longer sure if the issue derives from
the worries dwelling in my mind
or if they are tangible, in the real world. Nothing imaginary.
I know from all the stress I feel I have to let go and move on
but I just can’t help it.
My mind wonders what it would be like to be one of them again,
My heart aches from the loneliness they cause— from the isolation they keep me in, sometimes I feel like I allow them to cause this much harm,
My throat dries as I try to ignore my conscious and act as normally, but I know better.
And I just can’t help it.